Ramble Time.

I have so much homework that I don't even know where to start with it. I have 2 papers to write, a documentary to watch, a book to read, an outline to go with that book, a quiz to take... I'm sure there's more, but my mind is so tired that it won't think straight. Thank goodness tomorrow is going to be a "me" day according to Aaron. He told me that we're going to do whatever I want to do and just relax. I'm so excited for it. I'm making us a sexy, relaxing CD to listen to. The only bad thing? I want to smoke really bad, but no one that Aaron and I know have any right now. I hope we figure something out.
I went to the girl's soccer game tonight. It was fun, and I sat with the most random group, ever. I love going and watching/listening to the high school boys. They're hilarious, and they just make me smile. The girl's aren't great, and it pisses me off because I want to be out there so bad. They most definitely need my help, their defense is ridiculous. Me and a girl two years older than me that also used to play want to coach next year. I don't know if that'd work though since I really want to transfer to a school an hour away. Actually, I KNOW it wouldn't work out, but it was a nice idea!
Tuesday, Aaron and I are going to my best friend's house in Indianapolis. I'm so excited. She has her own apartment, and she lives right by this really nice park type of thing that I absolutely love. She's a photographer, so there's going to be cute pictures (that I'm sure I'll post). Plus, I feel like I never get to see her anymore, so it'll be nice to spend some time with her. Another reason I'm stoked? Aaron and I finally get to spend the night together! My parents are super stupid when it comes to staying the night with Aaron. I mean, I'm 19 and I can't stay the night with a guy I've been dating over 2.5 years? Pretty insane if you ask me.
I know I always talk about this, but I really want to move out. I feel like I'm always asked what I'm up to, what I'm doing, why I'm doing it, where I'm going, etc. I'm 19 years old, and I should have more freedom (for a lack of better word). But, there's no way I can right now. I'm hoping that when I transfer that Aaron can move in with me. It's going to be hard though since I'm a waitress and he works at Petsmart. Maybe I could find a better job down there, but it's just hard. What if I don't find a job down there? I just hope it works out. I really want to go to school down there and start living my own life.
You know what really pisses me off? The fact that it's supposedly fall, but yet it was 93 degrees outside today. At my college, we had "Campus Beautification Day". We raked leaves and picked up sticks around the campus. It was so incredibly windy that raking the leaves was pointless. Plus, it was so incredibly hot out that I was sweating. Bleh. I want fall weather! I've had enough of this hot ass weather. I'm ready for sweatshirts, scarves, flats, jeans, jackets. Screw the shorts and flipflops! I know I talk about this almost everytime I blog, but I guess you can see just how bad I hate summer weather when it's not even supposed to be this hot!
Another thing that pisses me off? This guy I work with (and used to be super good friends with) has been having pretty depressive stati (plural of status, correct?), and I still care about him as a friend. I want to make sure he's okay, and that he knows even though I can't act like I used to, I still am there for him to talk to if he needs it. So, everytime I read one of these sad stati, I text him to ask him if he's okay. He texts back in one word responses (HUGE pet peve of mine), and I ask if he wants to talk about it. He replies, "Nope.". Whatever, dude. I'm done trying to be there for you. You're so freakin' depressed over "not finding the one". Get over it! You're freakin' 17 and a senior. HAVE SOME FUN! Sometimes I wish I would've been single my senior year, just to enjoy it a little more (well, I still enjoyed it, I just didn't have freedom, I guess.). So, yeah. I'm done being there for you. Hell, I'm not even going to look at you at work anymore. I was there for you when you were all freaked out, and I'm being a friend. I don't know. I guess if you read this, you're probably thinking, "wtf? so what if he doesn't want to talk about it?". But you'd have to be in my shoes to understand it. OVER IT.
love, d.

Did anyone watch..

The World of Jenks tonight (or whenever the new episode of the homeless girl was)? I am in absolute love with this show. It's not a trashy, up to no good show. It is probably one of MTV's best shows. All of us wonder what it's like to live in another person's shoes, and we finally get to view it. I would love to be able to do this. Well, tonight, Jenks "lived" with a homeless woman, Danielle. Danielle had a crummy home life. Her parents were both alcoholic and violent with her. She was never respected or rewarded or anything like that. Once, her step father even presented her with a knife, telling her to kill herself. She got out of that situation and went to San Fransisco. She's a much happier person, but obviously she's not living the perfect life. She sleeps on concrete, gets terrible remarks when asking for spare change, and has even spent 6 days hitch-hiking. Even though her life isn't great, she still has an incredible personality. She keeps an awesome mindset and is such a great person. I could go on and on about this show and how much I love it, but I think you all should tune in and let me know how you like it. Jenks also goes and lives with an MMA wrestler, a cheerleader, a rapper, an autistic guy, and other "non-traditional" people.

Love, d.

My obsessions

Here are some of my obsessions as of recently: Coffee (especially oz fat free vanilla from gas america) Making to-do lists/getting organized Spending time with and loving my boyfriend Going to the library Blogging (xanga and blogger) Cute hairstyles (mainly having something to do with some sort of braid) Making new friends at college Finding the cute pictures I always include at the end of my posts  What are yours?  Here's my to-do list for today: Make Kristy's CD Make my CD Shower Work Math homework Math quizzes Work out Read at least one chapter of history book Love, d.

Just call me busy bee!

Holy moley. School is most definitely kicking my ass. Well, I had my very first college exam on Tuesday. It was in my favorite class, Psychology. I was taking it and putting stars next to the questions I should come back to. Unfortunately, there were about 30 little stars, just waiting on me to return. I did some process of elimination one ones where applicable. I still came up with a ton of questions that I wasn't sure about. Well, the results came, and I got a D. Yes, a D is better than an F, and many people told me that the first college exam you take isn't going to turn out well, in most cases. But, another unfortunate event rose today. I walk into that class, and I see my friend, Tori. She asks me if I did the online quiz. Oh for the love of God. I didn't even see this quiz. You see we have a program through  my school where teachers can e-mail us, put homework and quizzes up, and just stay informed. But, this class doesn't inform you when there is a new online quiz to be taken. So, I got a zero on it. The good news is, she drops the lowest quiz grade. I just have to bust my butt so much more in order to do half way decent in this class. 

College isn't all bad, though. I have a Writing/English/Debate class (which I absolutely love!) tied in with my Learning Community (basically, a class all about wanting to become a teacher). Well, we're now in the process of writing a summary paper. My topic is over an article dealing with same-sex marriage. Boy, I sure have done this topic a crap ton. It has to be 1,200 to 2,500 words. I have 1,212, but I really think I did a super fantastic job on it. It's my first college paper (hopefully not with the same results of my first college exam), and I just hope my professor approves of it. I did a short, little paper (nothing serious, at all), and received a 25/25. She told me I write well. I just can't wait to finish it. We did the peer reviews today, and they really didn't have much to add to mine. I think I'm going to do well in this class. 

I'm getting very organized for my classes. I bought 5 different binders and some separators for the papers that I put in them. It looks awesome, and everything is so neat. Now, if only I could say that everything is still organized when I bring it home. You should see my room right now. It's a massive mess consumed of books, papers, folders, sticky notes, clothes, sheets, and a whole array of other random things. But, that will soon change. As soon as I'm done writing in here, I'm going to make it look all spiffy and pretty. 

Well you see, my boyfriend and I went through some problems recently. We're doing so well right now. I mean, he's still very upset and sad about the whole situation, but we're really trying to work through this. I just cannot explain how thankful I am for him. I've spent the past two days with him, and both days have been great. We're really getting along, and I'm really trying my hardest to change for the better. I really think we're going to be alright, and I couldn't be happier about that. 

My birthday was Tuesday. I turned 19! My parents got me the most crazy awesome bike. It's a deep red with super huge rims. It's a bit too tall for me, but I'm in absolute love with it. It's one of those "cruisers", the ones that resemble the bikes in older times. I really want to get a cute, wicker basket on the front of it. I'd really be stylin' then. Aaron bought me a pair of all black Vans, but they're a size too small. He'll have to return them. My best friend, Tabitha, came up and saw me, even though she had to cancel plans with a girl. She made me a precious little card, printed off three cute pictures of us together, and got me this awesome plant. It's call "Polka Dot" or "Freckled Face" or something like it. I've never had a plant of my own before. It excites me. Well, my whole family, Aaron, Tabitha, and I went to one of my favorite restaurants. It was a great time, and we took some really good pictures. All in all, it was a lovely birthday. 

Love, d.